Happy Birthday To Me~! Officially 24th~!

yeah... Happy Birthday to me~!

being 24th.... owh.. time flies~~


erk.. x sempat.. nnt bru update :p

**fly high to the sky**

-----baru dpt update.. mls nk merapu----

Chelsea... jgn kalah lagi

aku penat...

aku letih...

mcm2 dlm fikiran...

serabut...

blurr...

tak tau...

tak nampak jln...

seriously... i dont know~! sgt2 memerlukan petunjuk/hidayah dari ALLAH S.W.T

~relax.... relax...!! sentiasa igtkan diri utk relax... huh *sigh*~

sekian....

p/s : Chelsea, tlg menang byk lepas ni~!

Chelsea..... kalah....

:)

aku reply msg2 yg gelak akan kekalahan Chelsea dgn, "Lampard x main, pegi beraya... erk..."

n fyi, dis week, sume fav team cm hampeh... tp best gak, MU pn draw jek :P

sekian........ nomu bogoshippo.......

Mencari Erti Hidup - 11th Hour

Cerita pendek - 11th Hour - A man that decides to change on 12th hour... dies on 11th hour

masih lagi memahamkan cite ni...

mcm biase, dapat dr hlovate... credit to him/her [?]

mule memikirkan, hidup ni begini ke? cukup ke begini? begini ke nak dilalui hari2? kalau dlu mengambil pegangan :-
Things to do today : 1) Get up.. 2) Survive.. 3) Go to bed..

tapi dah mcm robot ler pulak.. hidup sekadar hidup... bukan ke hidup utk mati? pegangan tu still boleh gune, tp kene alter skit..
Survive dlm erti kate, pertingkatkan diri *i'll try!*..

Boleh ke? mcm mane nk mule kan? *blurr... *

last2 aku terigt msg Lyssa, "aku bru dgr crmh aritu, klu nak mulakan sesuatu, mulakan dgn kemaafan.. bersihkan hati"

mulekan baru bukan dgn melupekan yg lame... mulakan baru dgn go through bende yg lame... maafkn [sbb diri juge ingin dimaafkn]... even byk persoalan, pertikaian, kenapa, mengapa, bagaimana, juz let ALLAH S.W.T knows it all.. Dia Lagi Maha Mengetahui.. keep praying on hidayah ALLAH S.W.T

sekian..... aku tetap aku yg dulu.... it's just.....hmmmm

Raya? yela... Raya 2010/1431H

Benda yang aku igt utk raya ni... aku accident, langgar tembok umah kaduk (tunang wawa)... itu jek... sekian! (hilang sume kenangan manis!)

tu dia kete yg slalu wat aku 'sakit'...

1) kene marah dgn ayah! (expected).. aku dah ckp dah kt wawa & hajar, "Kill Me!"... siap update status nak larik bagai (sgt luke hokkay!)... *tp skrg dah ok dah.. kete dah ok, ayah pn dh ok*

2) melayang RM aku...!


sekian... perigtan utk diri sendiri.. lenkali jgn bwk kete mak dah! next year, beli kete sendiri! *haish*

ALLAH S.W.T Knows Best

mak selalu ckp, "semua ade hikmahnya"... "Sabar"... things are easier said than done... Sometimes I could make it, make myself felt, "yeah, Sabar.... everything is gonna be ok!"... but somehow, it turned out to be.. "For how long? Why me? etc"

mak, whose always make me see the world, life, in a positive way... because of her, I stay still alive in this worst, cruel world! because of her, I felt, "no worries... coz I always have mak to stand by myside"... because of her, I try to become optimist person..

But, mak.. right now, I really don't know what to do.. what to say.. what to think... what am I suppose to do.. what should I do... am I right? or did I do the wrong? am I in the right path? or should I turn to another way?... blurr, blank, empty.. Is it true, if there'll be a hikmah for all this?... tired of praying for hidayah! (Astagfirullah Al-Azim!)..

but, I couldn't even say/talk/discuss to u all these things..

I know your magic word to me, "Sabar... Sabar.. Sabar... Semua ada hikmahnya..."... for that, I try to stand. Build the spirits again to keep stepping in this life. I'll try my best. Trying to be cool again. Relax and chill... Owh! Will I? I don't know. As long as I'm alive, then, it should be ok. Maybe.


~How am I suppose to forget things when I'm always praying for that things to happen?~ I just don't know


p/s : Semua Ada Hikmahnya... Keep hopes alive~!

I'm welcoming Syawal.... but I'll miss u a lot, Ramadhan...

Tinggal beberapa hari jek lagi. Persiapan?

- biskut raya (/)
- baju raya ayah (/)
- baju raya adik (/)
- baju raya fatin gediks (/)
- baju raya anak2, Qiesya & Airyssa (/)
- tukar duit raya (/)
- zakat fitrah (/)
- baju kurung utk mak n fatin gediks (/)
- wallet mak ( )
- tudung raya ( )
- baju raya eman ( )

Raya ni, budak2 jela yg suke. Yela, dgn baju raya baru, baju kurung n baju jalan. Kasut baru. Dapat duit raya. Etc. (been there)Sejak2 dah keje ni, persiapan utk rumah n org2 kt rumah tu lagi penting dr diri sendiri. Sepasang baju kurung (yg mak pilih) n tudung baru, tu jela yg penting yg aku dah siapkan dah. (tu jela yg wajib kan utk seorg perempuan? hehe.. dgr yaya, ada, dll, berpasang2 baju kurung! Adeh.. aku, ckupla sepasang!)
Baju utk jalan2 tu, nnt2la beli. Aku pny baju, bile2 boleh beli. Tapi utk ayah, mak, adik2, time2 ni la nak beramal jariah utk dorg. Haritu belikan baju utk ayah, fatin n adik. Payah! Tak tau dorg suke ke tak. Semalam, mak dtg KL pulak, bagilah segala brg tu kt mak suh bwk balik. Pagi ni, aku call mak, tny, ayah suke tak. Mak ckp ayah suke! tp satu jek, takde kocek/poket kt baju tu.. keke.. dah agak dah..
Tp Alhamdulillah.. ayah suka. Ntah, aku rasa sgt lega, gembira, bila dpt belikan dorg barang2 n dorg suke! Aku tak beli ape2 pn, xpe. Asalkan mereka2 yg aku sayang bahagia, aku gembira!
Hati ni tersentuh gak, bila eman bg msg "utk eman takde ke?"... hehe.. aku tak reply pn! tgkla, mggu2 terakhir ni, kalau aku keluar, aku try la tgk2 baju utk dia. *Haish! mst aku beli pny utk dia. Tak boleh la bile org dh ckp cmtu T__T... eman, nnt akak beli ye!*
Wallet utk mak pn tak beli lg. Ye, tudung aku pn tak beli lg. Bak kate kak diana, "dah tak sempat dah!".. bile fikir2, mmg pn. Tgkla nnt.

Duit raya.. aiyoo.. pening fikir.. makin bertambah! yela, sepupu yg comel bertambah2.. hehe.. tp igt mak ckp! sekali sekala, utk raya ni jela nak beramal jariah.. ye, baik! *semoga dimurahkan lagi rezeki.. amin!*

Rindu sambut raya masa kecik2 dulu! Malam2 main bunga api.. Oh, aku sgt suke main bunga api, mercun! Since dah besar, adik2 pn dah besar ni, dorg tak rajin nak carik bende2 alah tu! haish! *menyampah sungguh! abg pn.. takde nak carik2 gak!*
Smlm, jumpa org jual, tnyla bape hengget, adeh, mahal! Tp aku rasa, kat rumah atok nnt, mlm raya, mst bdk2 ni (sepupu2) dok main (pakcik tu slalu supply), Ah! xkire! nak terjah dorg mlm raya tu (kalau tak kene wat keje ler.. keke)
Oh.. rindunye nak main bunga api, mercun dgn bdk2 kecik ni! *geram*..

Ramadhan.. semoga akan berjumpa lagi di tahun akan dtg! Insya-ALLAH! Will be miss you. Byk gak yg belajar time bulan puasa tahun ni. :)

Selamat Hari Raya I'dulFitri... Maaf Zahir & Batin! Halalkan segalenye... makan minum ilmu..etc

sekian.. dari aku..hmmmm... aku yg rindu Allahyarham maktok T__T.. Al-Fatihah..

p/s : terasa kosong tibe2..